sometimes

Sometimes you just have one of those days--call it lack of sleep, high humidity, stress, so on--where you don't feel inspired or hopeful. Everything seems wrong and yet nothing seems wrong either. These are days when you have to walk by faith not by emotion. I've been so blessed being here that often times when I say "I love living here. I'm enjoying being single" I really mean it. But then I have times when I don't exactly feel that way and must walk in faith knowing that I serve a faithful, loving, and powerful God.

This morning on my walk to work, I had to remind myself of that. I often am like the Israelites who would see God deliver them time and time again with His mighty hand and they would praise Him. But then when another challenge would come along, they would forget about this All-Mighty, All-Powerful, All-Loving God! So on my way to work I was trying to avoid this ever-so-common-scenario in my life and think on how God has delivered me in amazing ways. I certainly have plenty of stories, especially in the past two years since I have been living in NYC. The joy, the growth, the protection, the "coincidences", the opportunities, its marvelous. I feel God's pleasure on me...truly. So this is what I have to remind myself of when I have days like this.

One of the verses that I have been clinging to is that God's foolishness is wiser than man's wisdom. I love this because it reminds me how limited my vision and knowledge is and that God knows way more than I do what I truly want and truly need. Praise God that I don't have to carve out my own story.